{"id":688,"date":"2013-11-07T19:00:59","date_gmt":"2013-11-08T03:00:59","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/community.scrippscollege.edu\/invisible\/?p=688"},"modified":"2015-03-12T11:18:52","modified_gmt":"2015-03-12T18:18:52","slug":"pantsless-in-claremont","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/community.scrippscollege.edu\/invisible\/2013\/11\/07\/pantsless-in-claremont\/","title":{"rendered":"Pantless in Claremont"},"content":{"rendered":"

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About a month ago I came to a realization: I had no pants. Other than a pair of plaid skinny jeans I\u2019d begged my mother to get me in 11th grade, none of my pants fit. I\u2019d just been wearing my girlfriend\u2019s jeans on the days when I didn\u2019t drape my legs in plaid. So I resolved to buy some more. While waiting for my paycheck, I decided to scour the Internet (in the absence of personal transportation) for new threads.<\/p>\n

I have to admit, I have a bit of a complex when it comes to buying clothes. For one, there\u2019s the whole money thing and the fact that I have to spend it. I also have a reluctance to spend more than $25 on any one item, which is becoming increasingly difficult as my body matures and I have to shop for real people clothing in Women\u2019s as opposed to Junior\u2019s sizes. Once I come to terms with the fact that less than $60 for a pair of pants is supposed to be a good deal, I have to find something that I actually like\u2013\u2013 preferably for around $30. The hardest part is finding apparel that\u2019s unique and matches my personal aesthetic, which can be tricky when I have to factor in my gender presentation.<\/p>\n

My relationship with femininity has a certain hate-love-why-won\u2019t-you-leave-me-alone??? quality. At times, I feel pressure to be \u201ccute\u201d in the way that everyone else is\u2013\u2013from high-waisted bottoms (which do tend to fit me better) to crop tops to heels to bralettes to whatever the current feminine cut is the trend. Then I get sad because I know I will never be that. I don\u2019t have that sort of effortlessly bold and modern femininity that you see around the campuses. When I do present more with more femininity\u2013\u2013 whether it\u2019s a tight, noir-worthy curve-hugger of a dress or a long,<\/ins> comfy maxi\u2013\u2013 I feel exposed. The assumptions about my femininity and by extension my strength seem to linger in every glance or gaze.<\/p>\n

When it comes to pants, it\u2019s far easier to find a neutral in regards to the masculine-feminine spectrum. But-\u00a0I also like tight, high-waisted cuts. Part of the appeal is that I don\u2019t have to worry about a low waist that doesn’t take into account my butt-to-waist ratio, and part of it is that a sleek pair of black legs is incredibly fierce. But then I have to ask, is this pair too girly? Will I have a complex putting these on? If I go for a less \u201cfeminine\u201d option, will they be interesting enough for me to feel like myself?<\/p>\n

While I was initially only going to buy one pair of pants to tide me over until I saved a little more money and got the chance to go to a mall, I ended up buying two pairs (mostly for free shipping). What type of pants I bought\u2013\u2013 and how tight or feminine or how effectively they shun or mimic gender convention\u2013\u2013 isn\u2019t as important as how they make me feel. After a bit of a struggle and several bouts of indecisiveness, I finally realized that I can never go wrong with a couple pairs of snug, black, high-waisted pants.<\/p>\n

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Vivienne Muller\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

Writing Director Scr ’16<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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